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...may meet God today.
Last night Truman was placed on life support after a clot in his leg moved to his lungs. 2pm today may bring to the end months and months of pain, suffering, and misery for all involved. Or it may not. No one knows.
Truman was unwaivering in his decision to not be kept on life support, and I cant say that I blame him. After fighting a hear aneurism, a kidney infection, discovery of advanced cancer, gsastrointestional ailments, incontenance an IV wound infection, blood clot in his leg, chemo, falling, another name it and the poor man has experienced it in about a 5 mo period--I wouldnt want to hang around for that either.
My prayer for him and all the family is Peace. Rest. Faith. and Memory--memory of who Truman was. Memory of the things Truman loved. Memory of the love we have for him and...that God's love surpasses all.
Whether it be today, tomorrow or next month, I pray that Truman is renewed upon his passing, and meets his savior amids…

My Christmas Angel

Today was an especially difficult day with the girls. Usually both were crying or whining at the same time. Reese thinks she needs a bandaid for everything. Raeleigh is teething. I am tired. And Jason is worn thin. Not an easy combination.
We HAD to go to walmart today to exchange a gift. We had bought Truman candy, but he isnt really eating well--so we returned to candy for flannel pjs. After finishing up in the store with these two kids, Jason went to check out and I went to the front of the store with the buggy bearing both Reese and Raeleigh. I stood behind the buggy unwhittingly looking even more ragged than I felt but managing to play with Raeleigh and make her laugh, while soothing Reese into beleiving that I had indeed just given her an imaginary band-aid.
An elderly man walked through the doors next to me and for a brief moment our eyes met and I felt something. I felt something I even now I cannt fully expain other than to say it was the Holy Spirit pulling the two o…


Why I love President Bush

Forget economy, forget finger pointing, forget the world...I love President Bush because as a national leader he does not fear being openly spiritual and an admitted Christian whose decisions and stances back up that proclaimation.

WASHINGTON (CNN) -- President Bush reflected on his own struggle with alcohol in a White House meeting Thursday that touted gains in the war on drug abuse.

President Bush speaks about his administration's efforts in fighting drug abuse at the White House on Thursday.

CNN was the only media outlet invited to attend the entire meeting, which other reporters joined in the final minutes for remarks from the president.

Several in the room, including Don Coyhis of Colorado Springs, Colorado, who runs a program targeting Native Americans battling substance abuse, were recovered addicts or alcoholics.

Bush, who quit drinking at the age of 40, was impressed.

"Congratulations on 30 years of sobriety," the president told Coyhis. "I'm eight years behi…

Christmas Season Rules

As the Christmas season begins, I want to pass along these celebratory
tips. Enjoy the spirit of the festivities!

1. Avoid carrot sticks. Anyone who puts carrots on a buffet table knows
nothing of the Christmas spirit. In fact, if you see carrots, leave
immediately. Go next door, where they're serving chocolate peanut butter

2. Drink as much eggnog as you can. And quickly. It's rare .... You
cannot find it any other time of year. So drink up! Who cares that it
has 10,000 calories in every sip? It's not as if you're going to turn
into an "eggnog-a-holic" or something. It's a treat. Enjoy it. Have one
for me. Have two. It's later than you think. It's Christmas!

3. If something comes with gravy, use it. That's the whole point of
gravy. Gravy does not stand alone. Pour it on. Make a volcano out of
your mashed potatoes. Fill it with gravy. Eat the volcano. Repeat.

4. As to the mashed potatoes, always ask if they're made with…

I hacked off my own hair!

Just like this!


I am sitting here this morning making baby food for Raeleigh and taking a trip down memory lane.
For some reason this morning I cant stop thinking about my first love. He was a huge athlete. He did Football, Basketball, name it. He was the star of parades, and the small town I grew up in even designed a tee-shirt honoring him. He was tall, dark, handsome and covered in fur. Rosco was his name. I was Rosco.
I have ALWAYS had a flair for the dramatic, but little did I know how much trying out for mascot my 8th grade year would affect my ability to have an outlet for that creative energy. On a whim my 8th grade year I picked up a cheerleader tryout application and decided to go out for mascot. To be quite honest I did it for the shoes. I LOVED those asics!
My skit for tryouts was just the beginning of a beautiful relationship with my alter ego, Rosco. If I remember correctly it had some sort of looney tunes theme and I was hunting a rabbit--the rest of that tryo…

Nov 2008 portraits



FINALLY! The day came. I went to the endocrinologist this morning.
There is still a 1 cm lump. The strange thing is tht the original ultrasound found it inferior an d today she found it superior. Hmmm. But it is the same size and it is actually tender to the touch.
She was kinda baffled by me. I have decreased uptake all over my thyroid but my blood tests came back normal--on the high end of normal, meaning I am fine.
My GP put me in 25mcg of synthroid a month ago when i found out it would take me sooooo long to get into endocin specialist. The Doc today didnt change that and even hinted about stopping it.
I am a new woman now that I am on it!
But she did stress something today that I knew but hadnt been considering--postpartum thyroiditis can last for up to 1 year after birth and could be my problem. Raeleigh is only 5 mo so I could still have another 7 mo of ups and downs.
I go back in 2 months so we w…


I am joyful today. Why you may ask...? Well I am joyful for the simple things. I am joyful that I feel relatively well.
I am joyful that I want to provide for my family's domestic needs.
I am joyful that I know God.
I am joyful that I have the ability to share God and His word with others.
I am joyful for friends, and family.
I am joyful for my life...
I spent this day doing laundry, feeding kids, pushing reese in her swing, making baby food, preparing Jason a weeks worth of prepackaged ready-to-go breakfasts, preparing food items for a weeks worth of cooking, folding and putting up clothes and I am so very thankful and JOYFUL for those things.
Praise God that I can be so very happy in so very simple things!

Psalm 100:2
Worship the LORD with gladness; come before him with joyful songs.

Psalm 33:1
Sing joyfully to the LORD, you righteous; it is fitting for the upright to praise him.

Psalm 68:3
But may the righteous be glad and rejoice before God; may they be happy and joyful.

Romans 12:12
Be …


Last week in formation group we learned about and discussed the Trinity, Godhead, three person God--whatever you want to call it it is still hard to wrap your head around.
This perspective REALLY helped me to 'get it'
God and Jesus are both one person and at the same time two seperate entities.
I like to think of God as the will and Jesus as the WORD.

"In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God and the Word was God...the Word became flesh and made His dwelling among us." John 1:1, 14

Well as you know the trinity is 3. So there is God and Jesus and The Holy spirit. I like to think of the Spirit as the Way, the relationship...the spirit that moves us..the Life and Love of God in us.

Ok so if this is so (which it IS) then Jesus always was and is and will be just as God was, and is, and will be. Jesus on Earth longed to be with God as he once was, meaning he was conscious of the Trinity and his onesness with God. The Spirit comes into being from the closeness…

TRick oR TReAt 08!

A cowgirl anda horse walk into a bar...

we had a great time but late that night Reese got VERY sick and vomited EVERYWHERE--and we hadnt even given her any candy yet....YUCK!


Meadowbrook Messenger

I am starting a neighborhood newsletter. A neighbor and I delivered more than half of them today. My feet hurt but it was fulfilling. I hope good things come of it!

The Meadowbrook Neighborhood association is back alive and kicking. We are in infancy as far as organization and planning. We can use all the help and ideas we can get.
This Newsletter will be published once monthly in order to increase communication and relationships between the residents of Brewster, Meadowbrook and Darden Streets.
In the past, these three streets have been referred to as the Meadowbrook Neighborhood Association, and we plan to revive that title and the spirit of brotherly love and relationship in our community.
The content of this newsletter will vary each month but the staple topics will include but are not limited to news, prayer requests, upcoming events, neighborhood watch updates, and stay in touch information.
All Residents are Invited to the upcoming Neighborhood planning meeting at Meadowbrook B…

New woman

I AM A NEW WOMAN! I feel wonderful. Is this waht I am supposed to feel like? If so, I have been sick a long time!
I mopped, rearranged, painted, scrubbed, vaccumed, washed, played, handiworked, etc yesterday and no nap and went out afterwards and didnt miss a beat. WOW! I actually feel 27 again instead of 57. I AM A NEW WOMAN!
YAY synthroid and YAY God!

Autoimmunity and Endocrinology 101

There has been alot of health stuff going on with me right now and just thought I would help to shed some light on what actually is happening...
First let me give you some explanations so you can understand me better--

Autoimmune diseases arise from an overactive immune response of the body against substances and tissues normally present in the body. In other words, the body attacks its own cells.

Endocrinology is a branch of medicine dealing with disorder of the endocrine system and its specific secretions called hormones.

The thyroid is one of the largest endocrine glands in the body. This gland is found in the neck inferior to (below) the thyroid cartilage (also known as the Adam's apple in men) and at approximately the same level as the cricoid cartilage. The thyroid controls how quickly the body burns energy, makes proteins, and how sensitive the body should be to other hormones.

The thyroid participates in these processes by producing thyroid hormones, principally thyroxine (T4) …

Small steps to faith...the Glory of God

I am trying. I am falling short, but I am still trying. To have faith that is.

This has been the worst and best month by far financially and spiritually for Jason and I.
Beginning of this month (or was it the end of last???) I paid bills and had $20. $20 and no food nor groceries nor diapers...TWENTY BUCKS!
The flesh in me began to freak! Then I realized, I HAVENT EVEN TITHED! So I wrote that check and Jason and I decided to just 'have faith'. MAN THAT IS HARD!

We felt it was only fair to meet God half way and guess what...OUR TITHE HAS BEEN RETURNED TO US TEN FOLD! I AM NOT EXAGGERATING!!!!!!!!!

We sold various items around the house, Jason went on a business trip and got mileage and food stipends, we had a MASSIVE garage sale and made close to $2000 total.
But this is the story that really moves me.

We decided that if we werent going to sell the house that we at least were going to truly downsize, get rid of things we even wanted but didnt truly need.
I sold my treadmill. …

mousy morning!

ok, so 2 nights ago at about midnight I fed raeleigh and needed something to drink after I laid her down. I headed to the kitchen, turned on the light and WHAM! There was a disgusting grey mouse on the counter. We fight mice continually but we didnt think we had any at the time...i made a really grossed out strange noise and Jason came running. I told him what I had seen and he cussed a little. The next night (last night) i sat glue traps out on the counter baited with cheese. I got up this morning and...nothing. MAN! I KNOW i had seen one.
Well we always keep bait underthe house cause like I said, this is a constant battle. This moring I am sitting at kitchen table working on comp and THERE IT IS! A MOUSE! Casually strolling across my kitchen floor in no particular hurry. I said a few obscenities and stoped towards it trying to scare it, this thing was slow! It must have gotten into the bait under the hosue, it wasnt acting get this...
I pick the glue…

Election 08

I got this information via an email forward froma good friend. I have sat the fence most of this election year. First I said if Clinton got nominated, i was definately voting mcCain and now that Obama is the nominee i didnt know where to go from there. I even thought about not voting at all. But as I think about it more and more I find myself agreeing with this forward in that my Christianity comes before all else political...

Everything below is via email and IS NOT my own...

My aunt sent me this article, and I have added the 2 links below concerning
this man. No matter what your political persuasion, I recommend that
everyone read his article below. We all need to be informed and it
crystallized for me that putting Christianity above all else, is where I
need to be. It is lengthy, but please read all the way to the bottom. He
brings up comparisons that I had never thought of. If you are an Obama fan,
then please at least be open-minded enough to look at this man's opinion. I

Restoration Gateway Uganda

So I was on facebook just goofing off and I happened across this. The material alone moved me deeply and then I realized that alot of the work has been done by one of my old students--Stephen McCall, he is the son of Tim and Janic McCall. That is so surreal.
Praise God for true servants.

Things to watch INSTEAD of presidential debate

Love it!

It's Raining on me...

I am at a time in my life where I feel like it is just raining on me constantly. When I feel overwhelmed I think of this song...

I can count a million times
People asking me how I Can praise You with all that I've gone through
The question just amazes me
Can circumstances possibly
Change who I forever am in You
Maybe since my life was changed
Long before these rainy days
It's never really ever crossed my mindTo turn my back on you, oh Lord
My only shelter from the stormBut instead I draw closer through these times
So I prayBring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be freeBring me anything that brings You glory And I know there'll be days When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to praise You Jesus, bring the rain
I am yours regardless of the clouds that may loom above because you are much greater than my pain you who made a way for me suffering your destiny so tell me whats a little rain
[1st Chorus]
Holy, holy, holy
Holy, holy, holy
is the lord God almighty
is …

Remembering DeJa

When I was in 8th grade our family dog died...his name was collar. We loved collar soooo much and were ripped to pieces when he had to be put down. We are all dog lovers and a few weeks later decided it was time to move on. That is when dipity joined our family. Dipity is my namesake--"boobie" that is. Dipity lived for a good 14 years and had to be euthanized in her old age. My mom's heart was broken. That was her best friend. Everyone told her, get a dog, move on, it will get took her a while but she did just that and this is where precious little Deja comes into the picture. She was a huge blonde dog that thought she was a tiny lap dog. She loved everyone and shared hugs and kisses on a whim. She was so very beautiful , all 120 lbs of her. I heard my mom refer to her as the morning sunshine, she brightened everyones day. Her name was in memory of SerenDIPITY, she was DEJA voo.
We went to my parents this weekend and DeJa went to heaven. She got hit in front o…

Once Upon a Time...

I would like to tell you a story. I am sharing this not for you to pity me nor see me as a charity case but to Glorify God in my situation. Please do not feel like I am asking you to bail me out, I realize that the circumstances I am in are because of my sinful ways [wasting money, eating out (come to find out food is an idol in my life), living above my means]...I have made alot of bad decisions--couple that with a few major plumbing problems, an expensive childbirth and here I sit today.
So here goes...
I am at the end of a very trying 2 week period. Two weeks ago today I sat down to finalize my budget and found myself to have only $20 left and no groceries nor gas. Hmmmm, I didnt see how that was going to work. I finagled this and then I finagled that and THEN, THEN, THEN, I realized I HADNT EVEN TITHED! I have made a new vow that I WILL tithe 10%, something I had yet to do in my adult life. I sighed, tried to take myself out of it (HA) and started over with a tithe. After mu…

Spirit of fear...

I have fear. I fear lots of things. But mostly I fear for my safety and the safety of my family. These are deep rooted fears. But tonight as I did my Beth Moore Study I got to thinking about this fear I have.
I want to walk every day. I have been paralysed with fear because that means taking 2 kids and myself out without Jason. That makes me feel soooo vulnerable.
I know that God does not give me the spirit of fear!!!
I am going to make myself do it. I realize that the fear I will pass along to my girls by fearing to do these things it far more dangerous than just going for a walk...
So here goes...tomorrow is a new day.

Sick and tired, literally...

I am so frustrated with being sick.
I am so tired of being tired.
I am just realy for SOMETHING to be easy...
I dont even care what...just something

socially, spiritually, financially, health, attitude, energy, even breastfeeding...

Something has got to give soon or this 'tree' is gonna snap in two.


This is raw truth!

WOW! I had no idea that my inability to be a team player stemmed from a deep rooted prideful sin.
I NEVER played a team sport. I mean,NEVER! I was on the cheerleading squad but as the mascot. I was inable to do something that required me to rely on anyone else. I do not trust. I always feel that if I want smething done right I just have to do it myself. I get angry when told what to do. I dont like someone else's idea to be chosen over my own...
I am currently participating in a Beth Moore Study entitled Breaking Free and learning how to not be a captive anymore. I am a captive of my own pridefulness and didnt even realize that I was being prideful at all. I never thought pride to be one of my big weaknesses--but man was I wrong.
In leadership roles I feel in control and 'know' my vision is being accomplished. I love being the leader. I have always had a very hard time being an indian to any other chief. The deal was, either I was in …


I remember growing up how chores were so terribly dreaded, but what was great about childhood was that there was someone there to MAKE you do them even if you didnt want to. I find as an adult that even thought I know something is the Lords will for me and for my best or for the goodness of my friends or family, I still have a problem with chores.

It amazes me how even things I love to do can somehow be manipulated by be it spiritual warfare or depression or pure laziness and in the end become chores.

In June of 2005 I weighed 145. That is a great weight for me and honestly, I like to have a bit of meat on my bones and feel sexy up to about 185. Two pregnancies later and I find myself hovering at a life time high of 250. WHAT! That cant be right...but sadly it is. I WANT change. I am NOT happy. But yet that desire to be healthier and better gets distorted into a chore and I find myself munching on junk food and 'forgetting' to work out. I even make excuses to myself, &…

Hukd On fOnikz worcked fur me...

yeah i know i never proofread, so shoot me
see the post below

Miscellaneous mumbles...

What happens in Formation group, STAYS in formation group...

Lose the pucker?

Sonic...that is just a choice you make

bellmead taco bell

a little like vegas but alot more fun

and the list continues...


Reese did # 2 in the potty today. I dont think I have ever been so excited to see poop



My dog has allergies soooo badly that he wont step off the concete patio outside, man that stinks!


How hilarious would it be fore there to be male chipmunks instead of chip n dales....i would much rater see a bunch of adult men dance around in full out chipmunk suits...totally hilarious...


I bet there are, i mean come on they have ice capades for everything these days, surely there is an Alvin, Simon, and Theodore out there SOMEWHERE...hmmmmm

I would totally prefer a bachelorette party THERE. And PLEASE, NO STRIPPING...that is just …

Despair in Africa

We are such a wealthy nation. I had never seen this pulitzer prize winning phot obefore today and it will haunt me henceforth...

Election 08 compliments of

Election '08 Resources
Official Candidate Websites
Senator Barack Obama
Democratic Party
Barack Obama met with Rick Warren at Saddleback Church in Lake Forest, Calif., on Saturday, August 16. Click to watch video of Senator Barack Obama's appearance with Rick Warren. Link does not imply endorsement of candidate nor endorsement of comments made by YouTube users. Full version video. (YouTube) - August 20, 2008
Saddleback Forum On Presidency: Barack Obama
Senator John McCain
Republican National Committee
John McCain met with Rick Warren at Saddleback Church in Lake Forest, Calif., on Saturday, August 16. Click to watch video of Senator John McCain's appearance with Rick Warren. Link does not imply endorsement of candidate nor endorsement of comments made by YouTube users. Part 1 - 4. (YouTube) - August 20, 2008
Saddleback Forum on Presidency: John McCain Part 1

My FAVORITE Praise and Worship song of all time

I am by Eddie James
Verse 1:
I am the Lord, I’m the Almighty God I am the One for when nothing is too hard I am the Shepherd and I am the Door I am the Good news to the bound and the poor
Chorus:I am, I am, I am, I am
Verse 2:
I am the righteous One and I am the Lamb,I am the Ram in the bush for Abraham,I am the Ultimate Sacrifice for sin,I am your Redeemer, the Beginning and the End
Chorus:I am, I am, I am, I am
Verse 3:
I am Jehovah, and I am the King,I am Messiah, David’s Offspring,I am your High Priest, and I am the Christ,I am the Resurrection, I am the Life
Chorus:I am, I am, I am, I am
Verse 4:
I am the Bread, and I am the Wine,I am your Future, so leave your past behind.I am the One in the midst of two or three,I am your Tabernacle, I am your Jubilee.
Chorus:I am, I am, I am, I am

Verse 5:I am Hope, I am Peace, I am Joy, I am Rest,Oh I am your Comfort, and Relief from your stress,I am Strength, I am Faith, I am Love, I am Power,And today I am your Freedom, this very hour.
Chorus:I am, I am,…

Insane look alikes

Mark, Jason and Marshall...

Fine Art Exhibition in my Kitchen...

Thank God for Magic Erasers!

Bellmead Taco Bell?

Ok, so LJ and I were going to a movie Friday night and appetizers b4 hand. We decided to meet at the Elite Circle Grille to chit chat b4hand and snack. Well they sometimes have 1/2 price appetizers and I volunteered to call to see if this would be happening when we were planning on going. I go to their site and get their phone #. I call the number and hear "Bellmead Taco bell"...what!?!?! I just apologised and said I had the wrong #. I thought, maybe there is a typo in their website so I go to and look them up. Same #. But hey, maybe i entered it wrong, so I call again. "Bellmead Taco Bell"
I just han gup without saying anything. I am exasperated so I call LJ and say, everytime I call the numbers I find for this place I get Bellmead Taco Bell I dont know how to get in touch with the Elite. She looks it up in phonebook...something i had yet to think about (what a dufus) and SAME NUMBER! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
So I said well if it is a typo in s…