Wednesday, November 26, 2008


I am sitting here this morning making baby food for Raeleigh and taking a trip down memory lane.
For some reason this morning I cant stop thinking about my first love. He was a huge athlete. He did Football, Basketball, name it. He was the star of parades, and the small town I grew up in even designed a tee-shirt honoring him. He was tall, dark, handsome and covered in fur. Rosco was his name. I was Rosco.
I have ALWAYS had a flair for the dramatic, but little did I know how much trying out for mascot my 8th grade year would affect my ability to have an outlet for that creative energy. On a whim my 8th grade year I picked up a cheerleader tryout application and decided to go out for mascot. To be quite honest I did it for the shoes. I LOVED those asics!
My skit for tryouts was just the beginning of a beautiful relationship with my alter ego, Rosco. If I remember correctly it had some sort of looney tunes theme and I was hunting a rabbit--the rest of that tryout is a blur. I do remember having to learn a dance for tryouts and had to do that with the cheerleaders--not my forte. But I did it and got JV mascot. There was a JV and Varsity spot and freshmen were ineligible for varsity.
WOW! That next year was great. I hod so much fun! There was camp, then pep rallys and games. People at school knew me but only knew me as Rosco. Not many people called me Rachel. I began creating my most dynamic character ever--granted I had 3 years to do this.
Rosco LOVED to dance. He even got reprimanded for freak dancing on the 50 yard line at an out of town pregame showdown between the 2 mascots. OK--so i may have crossed the line when i got a running start slid across the field on my knees and humped the air. BUT hey, it was great entertainment.--I wont the dance off BTW.
Rosco had it all. Costumes, props, his own money, a horse, name it He had it.
I liked Rosco to be sort of a Cartoon quality superhero. He was always dressed to the Nines and had surprises up every sleeve.
His costumes included but was not limited to...
Football ensemble--jersey and shorts
cowboy with caps holster with a bone sequin belt buckle with his name on it and vest...all with fringes and even faux snake skin boots to match with a white horse (on a bicycle so I could actually ride it)
a tuxedo
a men in black suit with the ray bans
a mardi gras cape and mask for parades
bell bottoms, and leisure vest
a maintenance outfit with mop caddy
an Indian outfit with drum, headdress and peace pipe
basketball outfit
Jamaican dog with dreadlocks and hat
man...the list goes on
Rosco had money with his pic on it that he used to bribe tv crews to put him on TV when they came to the games.
of course a wallet and ID
a Cadillac
I tried out the next year and got varsity squad. This year was the best. At the athletic banquet I got a standing ovation (so surreal). This was the year I got best Mascot at camp. Then to top it all off I made it to NCA nationals and won 2nd best mascot in the nation. TOTALLY COOL. The event was even televised. My skit for that even was my favorite. I was Cowboy Rosco with my horse and bone holster. The scene opened with instrumental music from pink floyd (i did my own music BTW). I pop up from behind a huge bolder on my horse. We are in the desert with cactus' and tumble weed. We find a HUGE 3ft tall rattle snake. I JUMP off my horse, draw my bone and whack the snake over the head. I then pick him up and wrestle him back behind the bolder where i began. (mixed music playing) I come up with a HUUUUUGE needle and thread like I am sewing something behind the rock. Then the music abruptly changes to THESE BOOTS are MADE for Walking--I come out behind the boulder strutting and showing off my new snake skin boots that match the snake i just killed. I get back on my horse and ride off into the sunset. TOOO MUCH FUN!
The next year i made varsity again and had a blast. I need to upload some pics.
Well the kiddos call so my trip cometh to an end.
RIP Rosco...maybe one day I can find a reason to resurrect you!

I would love to buy a suit and do some sort of children's ministry at hospitals....hmmmmm--dunno how to make that one happen

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Nov 2008 portraits


FINALLY! The day came. I went to the endocrinologist this morning.
There is still a 1 cm lump. The strange thing is tht the original ultrasound found it inferior an d today she found it superior. Hmmm. But it is the same size and it is actually tender to the touch.
She was kinda baffled by me. I have decreased uptake all over my thyroid but my blood tests came back normal--on the high end of normal, meaning I am fine.
My GP put me in 25mcg of synthroid a month ago when i found out it would take me sooooo long to get into endocin specialist. The Doc today didnt change that and even hinted about stopping it.
I am a new woman now that I am on it!
But she did stress something today that I knew but hadnt been considering--postpartum thyroiditis can last for up to 1 year after birth and could be my problem. Raeleigh is only 5 mo so I could still have another 7 mo of ups and downs.
I go back in 2 months so we will see...

For now...T3, T4 out ;)

Monday, November 17, 2008


I am joyful today. Why you may ask...? Well I am joyful for the simple things. I am joyful that I feel relatively well.
I am joyful that I want to provide for my family's domestic needs.
I am joyful that I know God.
I am joyful that I have the ability to share God and His word with others.
I am joyful for friends, and family.
I am joyful for my life...
I spent this day doing laundry, feeding kids, pushing reese in her swing, making baby food, preparing Jason a weeks worth of prepackaged ready-to-go breakfasts, preparing food items for a weeks worth of cooking, folding and putting up clothes and I am so very thankful and JOYFUL for those things.
Praise God that I can be so very happy in so very simple things!

Psalm 100:2
Worship the LORD with gladness; come before him with joyful songs.

Psalm 33:1
Sing joyfully to the LORD, you righteous; it is fitting for the upright to praise him.

Psalm 68:3
But may the righteous be glad and rejoice before God; may they be happy and joyful.

Romans 12:12
Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.

Colossians 1:11
being strengthened with all power according to his glorious might so that you may have great endurance and patience, and joyfully

1 Thessalonians 5:16
Be joyful always

Tuesday, November 4, 2008


Last week in formation group we learned about and discussed the Trinity, Godhead, three person God--whatever you want to call it it is still hard to wrap your head around.
This perspective REALLY helped me to 'get it'
God and Jesus are both one person and at the same time two seperate entities.
I like to think of God as the will and Jesus as the WORD.

"In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God and the Word was God...the Word became flesh and made His dwelling among us." John 1:1, 14

Well as you know the trinity is 3. So there is God and Jesus and The Holy spirit. I like to think of the Spirit as the Way, the relationship...the spirit that moves us..the Life and Love of God in us.

Ok so if this is so (which it IS) then Jesus always was and is and will be just as God was, and is, and will be. Jesus on Earth longed to be with God as he once was, meaning he was conscious of the Trinity and his onesness with God. The Spirit comes into being from the closeness and love of the relationship between God and Jesus.

Ok, so this week we studied 'humankind and the creation'...WOW! I made a connection that I was never aware of before.

We all have been told that we are made in God's image. But think, if God is a godhead/Trinity/3 person God, what does that mean for how mankind was made.

I had read the creation story in Genesis 1-2 many many times...but THIS I never caught!

26 Then God said, "Let us make man in our image, in our likeness, and let them rule over the fish of the sea and the birds of the air, over the livestock, over all the earth, [b] and over all the creatures that move along the ground."

27 So God created man in his own image,
in the image of God he created him;
male and female he created them.

Genesis 1:26-27

Notice the language
it doesnt say me or my. We arent just created like God, we are created like the trinity. And what is the trinity other than the perfect model of relationship.
NOw notice v 27...this blew my mind!
First it states God created man in his own image..meaning the godhead
then it restates in the image of God he created him...him? this word threw me off momentarily until I read...
male and female he created them

ok, this is what I got from this...
in my mind the statement 'in the image of God he created him' tries to define what him is. Him isnt a singular male person. Him refers to the trinity God mirrors in Him refers to the union
then is says 'male and female he created them'--to me this refers to the parts of the whole

Now remember that God didnt created mankind out of any sort of need. God created mankind through the fullness of His love. He created mankind to share this love and joy with them. God is his own self-existent community. He doesnt need us, he wanted to gift this expereince to us.

knowing this think about the implications.
If God is community and we are created in His image of the 3 person God...

Then isnt it safe to assume that humankind, as God created it, is not a unit until it is in community

My eyes opened wide as I realized the implications of this in marriage.
There was no male before there was female, so when God says that he created Him he does not mean male as we think of it. He means the 3 person 'person'. Male and female he created them defines the parts of the whole.

if God + jesus + that realtionship (aka Holy Spirit) = will + word + way = trinity
and we are made in that image
and God created humankind out of the love in that relationship


husband + wife + that relationship = image of God = Trinity
and the desire to procreate (have children) mirrors God's desire to creat humankind out of the love in that relation ship.
WOW! This openes so many doors in my mind!

This is why having children out of wedlock is so difficult...because humankind was created in the image of the Trinity and the loss of any one of the three parts disrupts the whole that we were created to be.

God doesnt sit in heaven creating rules...God is sitting in Heaven waiting for humankind to open the owners manual he sent us long ago (the Bible)...
the Bible isnt meant to confine us to some rigid ideal, it is meant to free us to be what we mere made to be....

This is why premarital sex is so emotionally painful... the relationship that is needed to finish out the 3 person 'person' we were created to be isnt there or doesnt last.

This is why divorce hurts so badly.

This is why any breakup is painful.

We are MEANT to be in union! any any piece of that outside of the 3 part formula is incomplete and we werent made to be incomplete!

I love GOD!

Saturday, November 1, 2008

TRick oR TReAt 08!

A cowgirl anda horse walk into a bar...

we had a great time but late that night Reese got VERY sick and vomited EVERYWHERE--and we hadnt even given her any candy yet....YUCK!