Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Spirit of fear...

I have fear. I fear lots of things. But mostly I fear for my safety and the safety of my family. These are deep rooted fears. But tonight as I did my Beth Moore Study I got to thinking about this fear I have.
I want to walk every day. I have been paralysed with fear because that means taking 2 kids and myself out without Jason. That makes me feel soooo vulnerable.
I know that God does not give me the spirit of fear!!!
I am going to make myself do it. I realize that the fear I will pass along to my girls by fearing to do these things it far more dangerous than just going for a walk...
So here goes...tomorrow is a new day.

Monday, September 29, 2008

Sick and tired, literally...

I am so frustrated with being sick.
I am so tired of being tired.
I am just realy for SOMETHING to be easy...
I dont even care what...just something

socially, spiritually, financially, health, attitude, energy, even breastfeeding...

Something has got to give soon or this 'tree' is gonna snap in two.

Thursday, September 25, 2008


This is raw truth!

WOW! I had no idea that my inability to be a team player stemmed from a deep rooted prideful sin.
I NEVER played a team sport. I mean,NEVER! I was on the cheerleading squad but as the mascot. I was inable to do something that required me to rely on anyone else. I do not trust. I always feel that if I want smething done right I just have to do it myself. I get angry when told what to do. I dont like someone else's idea to be chosen over my own...
I am currently participating in a Beth Moore Study entitled Breaking Free and learning how to not be a captive anymore. I am a captive of my own pridefulness and didnt even realize that I was being prideful at all. I never thought pride to be one of my big weaknesses--but man was I wrong.
In leadership roles I feel in control and 'know' my vision is being accomplished. I love being the leader. I have always had a very hard time being an indian to any other chief. The deal was, either I was in control or I just shut down. I didnt know how to do what I was told. That is a real problem for me. In my mind I always know better, see a bigger and better picture, and think everyone around me is stupid and just doing it wrong...
"If I were in charge of that..."
You know how it goes.
Well in doing my study tonight I really learned something about myself...that feeling I have always had about "not playing well with others" it is true, but it is MY FAULT! And more importantly, I can do something about it. I can humble myself and realize that I am NOT the best thing since sliced bread and I DO NOT have all the right answers even 1/2 of the time.
You know, that is really liberating. I dont feel like it is my job to make everything perfect. Because what might be perfect in my eyes is just that, my own personal definition of perfect--and every one has their own.
Praise God for showing me this weakness in myself. I Pray that God helpd me to overcome my prideful nature. I pray that God helps me to recognize my pride as pride.

"I live in a High and holy place, but also with him who is contrite and lowly in spirit, to revive the spirit of the lowly and to revive the heart of the contrite." Isaiah57:15

Saturday, September 20, 2008


I remember growing up how chores were so terribly dreaded, but what was great about childhood was that there was someone there to MAKE you do them even if you didnt want to. I find as an adult that even thought I know something is the Lords will for me and for my best or for the goodness of my friends or family, I still have a problem with chores.

It amazes me how even things I love to do can somehow be manipulated by be it spiritual warfare or depression or pure laziness and in the end become chores.

In June of 2005 I weighed 145. That is a great weight for me and honestly, I like to have a bit of meat on my bones and feel sexy up to about 185. Two pregnancies later and I find myself hovering at a life time high of 250. WHAT! That cant be right...but sadly it is. I WANT change. I am NOT happy. But yet that desire to be healthier and better gets distorted into a chore and I find myself munching on junk food and 'forgetting' to work out. I even make excuses to myself, "well the kids were especially hard today and you deserve a break". Truth be told, they are ALWAYS difficult and if I allowed myself to use that excuse I would NEVER lift a finger. I want my body to be the Temple that God desires. I feel as a dissapointment and that I lose some level of authority because I have such a very visibal sin and weakness. I know gluttony and slothedness can not be good and are even wicked but changing that pattern becomes a chore for me. Someone hold me accountable! Someone tell the fat girl to run!

I just started a Beth Moore Study and I am excited about it and love the study and time in scripture, prayer and with God. But you know what, as I sat here tonight doing my study I had a very difficult time concentrating...and then it hit me...man, even this is a chore. I chose to do it. I enjoy it. I love the opportunity and material...so waht is the problem?

I love a clean house, especially sparkling clean floors. But for some reason I cant make myself do the thing that i KNOW would put me at ease. OK, you may think me nuts...but I would LOVE to clean my kitchen and hardwood floors once a week on my hands and knees for a really gooooood clean. A mop just never cuts it for me...and even though I know the results would make me so pleased and at ease I just couldnt make myself do it this week.

I love the look on Jason's face when he comes in from work and there is a piping hot delicious dinner on the table. One that I put time and thought and effort into. To me that is love. Not only do i partly see it as my job I see it as a way to communicate to him how much i appreciate what he does every day by getting out of bed and going to work so that I can stay home and raise our children. But at times that is such a chore. I find myself just wanting to get a boxed dinner, or sandwiches or not wanting to cook at all. Why? I mean, I know the result when I do it and I know it is a positive one....why is it a chore when the benefits are so great?

I also started participating in a formation group about 3 weeks ago and I love it and even getting prepared for that feels like one more thing to check off the neverending list.

I want to get to a place where living a Christlike life isnt a struggle. But you know, maybe that is the point. Maybe it never will be easy. Maybe every day I will have to make a conscious EFFORT to do the things that I know are right. Maybe that is the point...it isnt easy because you have to chose it and the flesh in us fights it.

Oh how I wish my flesh would die so that He could live through me.
Oh how I wish that which feels like chores would become play.
I wish I were close enough to him that knowing He desires these things in me and for me would be enough to hold me accountable...
But I am not there, I still need fleshly rigidity and support...

Why spend money on what is not bread, and your labor on what does not satisfy? Listen , listen to me, and eat what is good, and your soul will delight in the richest of fare (Isa 55:2)

Oh God You are my God and I ask you to bless me and this house so that we will desire that our souls will delight in the richest of fare in order to bring you glory.

Hukd On fOnikz worcked fur me...

yeah i know i never proofread, so shoot me
see the post below

Friday, September 19, 2008

Miscellaneous mumbles...

What happens in Formation group, STAYS in formation group...

Lose the pucker?

Sonic...that is just a choice you make

bellmead taco bell

a little like vegas but alot more fun

and the list continues...


Reese did # 2 in the potty today. I dont think I have ever been so excited to see poop



My dog has allergies soooo badly that he wont step off the concete patio outside, man that stinks!


How hilarious would it be fore there to be male chipmunks instead of chip n dales....i would much rater see a bunch of adult men dance around in full out chipmunk suits...totally hilarious...


I bet there are, i mean come on they have ice capades for everything these days, surely there is an Alvin, Simon, and Theodore out there SOMEWHERE...hmmmmm

I would totally prefer a bachelorette party THERE. And PLEASE, NO STRIPPING...that is just creepy...


Did you know that Hewitt HEB has THE BEST mashed potatoes in tehre little deli area...i mean ther are like fat in a vat but ohhhhhhhhhhhh so good!

I think house is just a big jerk.
One time on the school bus home I curled my hair on pencils and tampons just to get a few laughs.

Friday, September 12, 2008

Despair in Africa

We are such a wealthy nation. I had never seen this pulitzer prize winning phot obefore today and it will haunt me henceforth...

Election 08 compliments of Klove.com

Election '08 Resources
Official Candidate Websites
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Thursday, September 11, 2008

My FAVORITE Praise and Worship song of all time

I am by Eddie James
Verse 1:
I am the Lord, I’m the Almighty God I am the One for when nothing is too hard I am the Shepherd and I am the Door I am the Good news to the bound and the poor
Chorus:I am, I am, I am, I am
Verse 2:
I am the righteous One and I am the Lamb,I am the Ram in the bush for Abraham,I am the Ultimate Sacrifice for sin,I am your Redeemer, the Beginning and the End
Chorus:I am, I am, I am, I am
Verse 3:
I am Jehovah, and I am the King,I am Messiah, David’s Offspring,I am your High Priest, and I am the Christ,I am the Resurrection, I am the Life
Chorus:I am, I am, I am, I am
Verse 4:
I am the Bread, and I am the Wine,I am your Future, so leave your past behind.I am the One in the midst of two or three,I am your Tabernacle, I am your Jubilee.
Chorus:I am, I am, I am, I am

Verse 5:I am Hope, I am Peace, I am Joy, I am Rest,Oh I am your Comfort, and Relief from your stress,I am Strength, I am Faith, I am Love, I am Power,And today I am your Freedom, this very hour.
Chorus:I am, I am, I am, I am
Ending:I am

Insane look alikes

Mark, Jason and Marshall...

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

Bellmead Taco Bell?

Ok, so LJ and I were going to a movie Friday night and appetizers b4 hand. We decided to meet at the Elite Circle Grille to chit chat b4hand and snack. Well they sometimes have 1/2 price appetizers and I volunteered to call to see if this would be happening when we were planning on going. I go to their site and get their phone #. I call the number and hear "Bellmead Taco bell"...what!?!?! I just apologised and said I had the wrong #. I thought, ok...so maybe there is a typo in their website so I go to switchboard.com and look them up. Same #. But hey, maybe i entered it wrong, so I call again. "Bellmead Taco Bell"


I just han gup without saying anything. I am exasperated so I call LJ and say, everytime I call the numbers I find for this place I get Bellmead Taco Bell I dont know how to get in touch with the Elite. She looks it up in phonebook...something i had yet to think about (what a dufus) and SAME NUMBER! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

So I said well if it is a typo in so many places I am sure they get this all the time so I will just call them back and see if THEY know the # for the Elite.

So I call back and..."Bellmead Taco Bell"

I say, "Look, I am trying to get in touch with the Elite Circle Grille and this is the only # i have been ablet o get my hands on, do you know how I can get the elite...?" SILENCE

"ma'am this IS the Elite Circle Grille."




Ok, so she had a thick accent. I am a retard and Bellmead doesnt even HAVE a taco bell!

Of course LJ called same time as me and got some guy and understood him immediately. SOMEHOW i go the same woman each time I called and she had a very strong hispanic accent..."Bellmead Taco Bell".


Monday, September 8, 2008

Da Bears

Chicago Bears defence turns tables on Indianapolis Colts 29-13

INDIANAPOLIS — Chicago's old formula got a new look Sunday night.
It still works. The Bears relied on a strong running game to control the clock, scored on a turnover and took advantage of an Indianapolis offence that was out of sync, beating the Colts 29-13 in the first regular-season game at the new Lucas Oil Stadium.
"We've always been a running football team," Kyle Orton said. "Any time you can do that, control the ball, you're going to have a good game. That's how we play football."
While the strategy wasn't good enough to win the Super Bowl 19 months ago against Indy, the Bears' new starters executed the game plan to perfection this time.
Matt Forte, the first Chicago rookie to start at running back since Walter Payton in 1975, ran 23 times for 123 yards - 50 on a first-quarter TD run in which he broke a tackle and then outran Bob Sanders, last season's defensive player of the year, to the end zone.
Orton, who wrested the starting quarterback job from Rex Grossman, was 13-of-21 for 150 yards and had no turnovers.
The win ended Indy's remarkable streak of 21 consecutive victories in September and October, the NFL's longest pre-November streak since the Green Bay Packers won 23 in a row from 1928-32. It's the first time since 2004 that Indy won't start at least 7-0.
"It's sickening," Super Bowl MVP Peyton Manning said. "First game new stadium, fifteenth game of the season - same stadium. It's really disappointing to lose."
But the Colts, and especially Manning working behind three new starters on the offensive line, weren't themselves Sunday. Losing tight end Dallas Clark with a knee injury in the first half and Joseph Addai with a head injury in the fourth quarter, didn't help, either.
The two-time league MVP burned timeouts to avoid penalties and didn't have his usually precise timing down with receivers. It was Manning's first game action since he had surgery to remove an infected bursa sac from his left knee in mid-July.
Other pieces weren't quite right, either.
The Colts defence, which allowed the fewest points in the NFL last season, allowed the Bears (1-0) to convert 10-of-16 third-down chances and couldn't get off the field.
Colts coach Tony Dungy lost both replay challenges - one on a safety when Addai was trapped in the end zone and the other when Marvin Harrison fumbled and Lance Briggs returned it for a touchdown.
The combination led to a predictable result.
"We had a couple of balls that we couldn't catch, we had a ball on the ground we couldn't get and they stripped one out and ran it back for a touchdown," Dungy said. "It's been a long time since we've been beaten like that."
Chicago's defence lived up to its reputation by limiting the Colts (0-1) to 53 yards rushing and forcing Manning to win it with his arm.
Manning finished 30-of-49 for 257 yards with one TD but had trouble connecting with receivers down the field and settled for field goals instead of touchdowns on the Colts' first two trips inside the Chicago 20.
The Bears couldn't have scripted it any better.
"It's kind of our mantra, attack up front," defensive tackle Dusty Dvoracek said. "We wanted to establish a new line of scrimmage, stop the run, put pressure on Manning. Everyone was flying around all over the place."
Forte got things started by erasing the Colts' 3-0 lead with his TD burst.
But the Colts nearly recovered in the second half, after trailing 15-6 at halftime.
Devin Hester took the second half kickoff about seven yards deep in the end zone, then waited a few seconds before coming out and getting tackled at the Bears' three.
When the Colts got the ball back in good field position, Manning converted with a six-yard TD pass to Reggie Wayne, making it 15-13 with 9:18 left in the third quarter.
The Bears answered with - what else? - defence.
Charles Tillman slapped the ball away from Harrison at the Colts 21, and Briggs scooped it up on a bounce and rumbled 21 yards into the end zone. And after a fourth-down stop near midfield, Jason McKie closed it out with a one-yard scoring plunge.
"In the Super Bowl, they ran all over us," Brian Urlacher said. "We wanted to take away the run and make them pass. We have a good pass rush."
Notes: Indy's last September loss came Sept. 9, 2004 at New England. ... The Colts opened the retractable roof and the sliding glass window before the game. ... NFL commissioner Roger Goodell, who attended the game, called the stadium "spectacular." ... No Bears receiver caught more than three passes. ... Wayne and Harrison combined for 18 catches and 162 yards.

Thursday, September 4, 2008

Listened but didnt 'hear'

Wow! I had listened to this before but today is the first day i ever really HEARD it. I love it and it speaks to me and my story so well....
If weakness is a wound That no-one wants to speak of Then cool is just how far we have to fall And I am not immune; I only wanna be loved But I feel safe behind the firewall Can I loose my need to impress? If you want the truth- I need to confess
I'm not alright, I'm broken inside, broken inside; And all I go through, it leads me to You It leads me to You
Burn away the pride Bring me to my weakness Till everything to hide behind is gone When I'm open wide With nothing left to cling to Only You are there to lead me on Cause honestly, I'm not that strong And now I'm moved, and now I'm moved, and now I'm moved (closer to you) And now I'm moved, and now I'm moved, and now I'm moved (closer to you) And now I'm moved, and now I'm moved, and now I'm moved (closer to you) And now I'm moved, and now I'm moved, and now I'm moved I'm not alright, I'm broken inside, broken inside Ohhhhhhhh broken inside, broken inside; And all I go through, it leads me to You It leads me to You I'm not alright, I'm not alright, I'm not alright That's why I need you

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

My great hubby!

About 7 years ago I was 'carjacked'. I dont even like using that word because it so does not describe what happened. It was in October of 2001 early morning about 7:45am. I was in bellmead/lacylakeview right outside waco and was heading to my car to go to Baylor's campus for my morning classes. I had my slimfast shake in one hand, my backpack on my back and my cell phone case and keys in other hand. My memory of that day is so vivid that I can even remember what I was wearing down to the undergarments.
Before I came down the apartment stairs, I saw the man turning the corner of the parking lot, walking. He had a brown bag in one hand. He was far enough away that I felt 'ok' going to my car. But there was that twinge of fear. I should have listened.
I opened my car, keyless entry, threw in my backpack and cell phone case, sat down and set down my cell phone case. I was closing the door and had the strangest sensation...it didnt close, i pulled and there was resistance.
I turned to look over my shoulder and there he was. He had run up, grabbed my car door as I was closing it and caught it right before it shut. He swung the door open, put what i thought was a pocket knife to my throat and told me to move over in the car. This is where I have a problem with labeling it a car jacking...he wasnt just after the car. His intent was to drive away with me in the passenger seat. To me that is attempted kidnapping. The cops labeled the event as an aggrevated robbery, even that doesnt please me.
Well, as many of you know this was not my first rodeo as far as being victimized and the bottled up anger i have kicked in. I remember those moments before i decided how to react very clearly.
The human nature to want to obey authority figures (someone yelling at you with a weapon) was the first response. I almost slid over and then i thought...not no but hell no. I was headed to school and then work...no one was expecting to hear from me and I wouldnt even have been missed until about 5;30 pm. Way too long.
So I thought grab your phone call 911....no, not fast enough.
Honk and scream and fight. YES! Everyone was home, it was early and they would all get ticked and come outside if someone starting honking. I laid my left hand on the horn, screamed for Jason (who had just gotten out of the shower or he would have never even have heard me) and fought off what ended up being a broken bottle with my other hand.
I remember him slashing at me and trying to sit next to me and physically push me over but I had wedged myself up against the console and wasnt going anywhere. I continued to fight.
I looked up and saw Jason emerge from the apartment clad only in a tshirt and boxers. He just thought maybe I had closed my hand in the door or something. I saw anger and fear wash over him at the same time. He came running down the stairs screaming profanities i didnt even know he knew.
Somehow I managed to fight my way through the assailant and out the door he was blocking. I still had one hand on him when I exited the car and man was i angry! I didnt want to let go. I wanted to rip him from that car and kick the @$*% out of him. But good old fashioned common sense and fear kicked back in and i ran. I got to a pole and collapsed right about the time Jason reached the car. The man had locked himself inside and was fumbling for the keys. Jason was pulling at the door handle and pounding on the glass screaming very profane things. I think he would have killed him if he would have gotten hold of him.
At that time I realized i was bleeding and screamed, I AM BLEEDING! An jason gave up the fight and came to see me. The man got the keys started the car and sped away.
Soon after the cops arrived and I realized my fingers we cut and my shirt and bra were cut through but all very minor injuries. I was soooooooooooo lucky.
They found my car a few days later. He had stolen my backpack which thankfully had no books in it but one binder organized with ALL my notes from ALL my classes and it was midterm time....grrrrrrrrrrrrr. He had also taken my phone but had left his broekn bottle in the brown bag.
Nothing ever came of it. Never heard anything. Had to do a forensic sketch for police but that was it.

Well this is where I am going to talk about how great my hubby is. Jason just a few months ago got a computer job with the waco police department. He called me today and said, "I have a suprise for you. Well i guess it is a suprise, I am not real sure how you will react." So i think, okkkkkaaaaaaaaay.....
I sat down, and he commenses to tell me about how he has been working on some computers over at the special crimes department and talks to the chief alot. He mentioned my case to the chief just wanting to see if the man ever got caught etc...and ....THEY REOPEND MY CASE! How cool is that. So very thoughtful.
I love my guy!


So my weakness is discipline. My life makeover tries to address this. I have now entered into accountability with Lara Jane and I have great aspirations.
Goal: get up at 6am every moring and work out, have my quiet time, shower and get dressed all b4 the girls get up. Lara Jane will call me at 7:40 every morning to see if i accomplished it.
This morning....hehehe. Well I exercised and had a truncated quiet time....after i got up at ....7:20. Oops. But this is really interesting, while having my time with God this is what I opened to
Judges 2
Disobedience and Defeat
6 After Joshua had dismissed the Israelites, they went to take possession of the land, each to his own inheritance. 7 The people served the LORD throughout the lifetime of Joshua and of the elders who outlived him and who had seen all the great things the LORD had done for Israel.
8 Joshua son of Nun, the servant of the LORD, died at the age of a hundred and ten. 9 And they buried him in the land of his inheritance, at Timnath Heres [b] in the hill country of Ephraim, north of Mount Gaash.
10 After that whole generation had been gathered to their fathers, another generation grew up, who knew neither the LORD nor what he had done for Israel. 11 Then the Israelites did evil in the eyes of the LORD and served the Baals. 12 They forsook the LORD, the God of their fathers, who had brought them out of Egypt. They followed and worshiped various gods of the peoples around them. They provoked the LORD to anger 13 because they forsook him and served Baal and the Ashtoreths. 14 In his anger against Israel the LORD handed them over to raiders who plundered them. He sold them to their enemies all around, whom they were no longer able to resist. 15 Whenever Israel went out to fight, the hand of the LORD was against them to defeat them, just as he had sworn to them. They were in great distress.
16 Then the LORD raised up judges, [c] who saved them out of the hands of these raiders. 17 Yet they would not listen to their judges but prostituted themselves to other gods and worshiped them. Unlike their fathers, they quickly turned from the way in which their fathers had walked, the way of obedience to the LORD's commands. 18 Whenever the LORD raised up a judge for them, he was with the judge and saved them out of the hands of their enemies as long as the judge lived; for the LORD had compassion on them as they groaned under those who oppressed and afflicted them. 19 But when the judge died, the people returned to ways even more corrupt than those of their fathers, following other gods and serving and worshiping them. They refused to give up their evil practices and stubborn ways.
20 Therefore the LORD was very angry with Israel and said, "Because this nation has violated the covenant that I laid down for their forefathers and has not listened to me, 21 I will no longer drive out before them any of the nations Joshua left when he died. 22 I will use them to test Israel and see whether they will keep the way of the LORD and walk in it as their forefathers did." 23 The LORD had allowed those nations to remain; he did not drive them out at once by giving them into the hands of Joshua.

and then this
Matthew 7
Judging Others
1"Do not judge, or you too will be judged. 2For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.
3"Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? 4How can you say to your brother, 'Let me take the speck out of your eye,' when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? 5You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother's eye.
6"Do not give dogs what is sacred; do not throw your pearls to pigs. If you do, they may trample them under their feet, and then turn and tear you to pieces.
Ask, Seek, Knock
7"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. 8For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.
9"Which of you, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone? 10Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? 11If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him! 12So in everything, do to others what you would have them do to you, for this sums up the Law and the Prophets.
The Narrow and Wide Gates
13"Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. 14But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it.
A Tree and Its Fruit
15"Watch out for false prophets. They come to you in sheep's clothing, but inwardly they are ferocious wolves. 16By their fruit you will recognize them. Do people pick grapes from thornbushes, or figs from thistles? 17Likewise every good tree bears good fruit, but a bad tree bears bad fruit. 18A good tree cannot bear bad fruit, and a bad tree cannot bear good fruit. 19Every tree that does not bear good fruit is cut down and thrown into the fire. 20Thus, by their fruit you will recognize them.
WOW! God sees and wants that discipline in me as well. Tomorrow will be better! I am encouraged.

Tuesday, September 2, 2008


Ok so remember we owe like $3500 in hospital bills from pregnancy and birth. Then add GIGANTIC amounts of credit card and student loan debt and now...are you sitting down? My friggin AC is blown. We had water in house from unit and I really thought iw as just a loose connection and had a really good attitude and now, *SCREAMING* $2500 fix. Someone shoot me. THank GOD for Sherri. But just another person I owe. :(

Monday, September 1, 2008


It is so nice to be a part of a community that reaches out. Just from a small blog post I have received so much encouragement and support and care. I thank God for the blessing of these relationships and I am excited to nourish them and see them grow. I love you all.