Thursday, October 30, 2008

Meadowbrook Messenger

I am starting a neighborhood newsletter. A neighbor and I delivered more than half of them today. My feet hurt but it was fulfilling. I hope good things come of it!

The Meadowbrook Neighborhood association is back alive and kicking. We are in infancy as far as organization and planning. We can use all the help and ideas we can get.
This Newsletter will be published once monthly in order to increase communication and relationships between the residents of Brewster, Meadowbrook and Darden Streets.
In the past, these three streets have been referred to as the Meadowbrook Neighborhood Association, and we plan to revive that title and the spirit of brotherly love and relationship in our community.
The content of this newsletter will vary each month but the staple topics will include but are not limited to news, prayer requests, upcoming events, neighborhood watch updates, and stay in touch information.
All Residents are Invited to the upcoming Neighborhood planning meeting at Meadowbrook Baptist Fellowship hall on Nov.11 at 7pm in order to help get things off the ground and rolling.
Hope to see you there!

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

New woman

I AM A NEW WOMAN! I feel wonderful. Is this waht I am supposed to feel like? If so, I have been sick a long time!
I mopped, rearranged, painted, scrubbed, vaccumed, washed, played, handiworked, etc yesterday and no nap and went out afterwards and didnt miss a beat. WOW! I actually feel 27 again instead of 57. I AM A NEW WOMAN!
YAY synthroid and YAY God!

Saturday, October 25, 2008

Autoimmunity and Endocrinology 101

There has been alot of health stuff going on with me right now and just thought I would help to shed some light on what actually is happening...
First let me give you some explanations so you can understand me better--

Autoimmune diseases arise from an overactive immune response of the body against substances and tissues normally present in the body. In other words, the body attacks its own cells.

Endocrinology is a branch of medicine dealing with disorder of the endocrine system and its specific secretions called hormones.

The thyroid is one of the largest endocrine glands in the body. This gland is found in the neck inferior to (below) the thyroid cartilage (also known as the Adam's apple in men) and at approximately the same level as the cricoid cartilage. The thyroid controls how quickly the body burns energy, makes proteins, and how sensitive the body should be to other hormones.

The thyroid participates in these processes by producing thyroid hormones, principally thyroxine (T4) and triiodothyronine (T3). These hormones regulate the rate of metabolism and affect the growth and rate of function of many other systems in the body. Iodine is an essential component of both T3 and T4. The thyroid also produces the hormone calcitonin, which plays a role in calcium homeostasis.

Hypothyroidism (underactive thyroid) are the most common problems of the thyroid gland.

Hashimoto's thyroiditis or chronic lymphocytic thyroiditis is an autoimmune disease where the body's own T-cells attack the cells of the thyroid. It was the first disease to be recognised as an autoimmune disease.

Why do I share such info? So you can uderstand what follows.
Since Raeleigh was born I was terribly fatigued, was losing hair, my psoriasis was worsening (i even began to have pits in my fingernails, a psoriasis sympton I had not yet experienced) A few weeks ago I had my second bout with hashimoto's thyroiditis (my first was my sophomore year in college). My thyroid swole and was terribly sensitive. I was so very tired. I napped when the girls napped, I slept as late as I possibly could and I went to bed as early as possible. It felt alot like depression but with a bit of hypoglycemia mixed in.

I went to GP had my throid blood levels tested and he sent me to get an ultrasound. In the ultrasound they found a nodule. This scared me a bit.
My mom was 5 years older than I am when she was diagnosed with thyroid cancer. To rule out cancer they sent me to get a Radioactive Thyroid Uptake exam and thyroid scan at Hillcrest. I waited what felt like FOREVER for them to get back with me. Finally I got the call. NO hot or cold spots (a cold spot could mean cancer). BUt get this...
There was minimal uptake over the whole thyroid.
Translation--the WHOLE thyroid isnt working.
So THAT is why my psoriasis is worse, that is why my hair is falling out, that is why i am tired, that is why my joints hurt, that is why sooooo many unexplained ailments have been plaguing me.
So the next step was to wait to get a call for my appt to the endocinologist (endocrine system doctor). I waited and waited and waited and FINALLY got that call...they couldnt get me in until Nov 20th.
So I made an appt with my GP again. Told her the situation, showed her my psoriasis and connected all the dots of my symptoms for her and....
1. she gave me a small dose of synthroid (synthetic t4 thyroid hormone)
2. Now wants me to go see a rheumatologist

one more defination for you

Rheumatology is a sub-specialty in internal medicine and pediatrics, devoted to the diagnosis and therapy of rheumatic diseases. Rheumatologists mainly deal with clinical problems involving joints, soft tissues and allied conditions of connective tissues. The term rheumatology originates from the Greek word rheuma, meaning "that which flows as a river or stream" and the suffix -ology, meaning "the study of."

Rheumatology is a rapidly evolving medical specialty; new scientific discoveries related to this specialty are largely related to better understanding of immunology of these disorders. Pathogenesis of major rheumatological disorders is now described as autoimmune disorders. Immunology explains pathogenesis and the characteristics of rheumatological disorders, and most of the new treatment modalities are based on immunology, better understanding of genetic basis of rheumatological disorders makes rheumatology a specialty rapidly developing as a medical specialty based on new scientific discoveries. New treatment modalities are based on scientific research on immunology, cytokines, T lymphocytes, B lymphocytes and future therapies may be directed more towards gene therapy as well.

Basically, she thinks something bigger is going on with me. SOmething overreaching and autoimmune causeing all of these various conditions

Bit of History--my mom has Lupus

Systemic lupus erythematosus (SLE or lupus, pronounced /sɪˈstɛmɪk ˈluːpəs ˌɛrəˌθiməˈtoʊsəs/) is a chronic autoimmune disease that can be fatal; however, with recent medical advances, fatalities are becoming increasingly rare. As with other autoimmune diseases, the immune system attacks the body’s cells and tissue, resulting in inflammation and tissue damage. SLE can affect any part of the body, but most often harms the heart, joints, skin, lungs, blood vessels, liver, kidneys, and nervous system. The course of the disease is unpredictable, with periods of illness (called flares) alternating with remissions. Lupus can occur at any age, and is most common in women, particularly of non-European descent.[1] Lupus is treatable through addressing its symptoms, mainly with corticosteroids and immunosuppressants; however there is currently no cure. Survival in patients with SLE in the United States, Canada, and Europe is approximately 95% at 5 years, 90% at 10 years, and 78% at 20 years

So that is where I sit. Waiting on the call now for the rheumatology appt. So I will probably be waiting and waiting and waiting but hopefully it will be worth it.

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Small steps to faith...the Glory of God

I am trying. I am falling short, but I am still trying. To have faith that is.

This has been the worst and best month by far financially and spiritually for Jason and I.
Beginning of this month (or was it the end of last???) I paid bills and had $20. $20 and no food nor groceries nor diapers...TWENTY BUCKS!
The flesh in me began to freak! Then I realized, I HAVENT EVEN TITHED! So I wrote that check and Jason and I decided to just 'have faith'. MAN THAT IS HARD!

We felt it was only fair to meet God half way and guess what...OUR TITHE HAS BEEN RETURNED TO US TEN FOLD! I AM NOT EXAGGERATING!!!!!!!!!

We sold various items around the house, Jason went on a business trip and got mileage and food stipends, we had a MASSIVE garage sale and made close to $2000 total.
But this is the story that really moves me.

We decided that if we werent going to sell the house that we at least were going to truly downsize, get rid of things we even wanted but didnt truly need.
I sold my treadmill. I love my treadmill...but truth be told I hadnt used it in a WHILE and it acted up on me so it was more of a frustration than anything. I told Jason to sell it for $100--he decided $60 when he found out it had a glitch. We did just that and...
I got this letter in my mailbox yesterday. Now mind you, it wasnt had been hand delivered to my box...

My name is Tammy, I'm, the lady who bought the treadmill from you. You were asking $100 for it at first. I agreed to pay that, then you called and said it was stopping every 2 minutes. You said if I was still interested you would take $60. I still wanted to see it.
Well after i got it home, plugged it in and began to use it I realized nothing was wrong with it. It has NEVER stopped for me.
Anyway, What I am trying to say is...
I feel I need to give you the rest of your money. I agreed to $100 at first.
The Lord has been telling me "do the right thing." I try my best to listen to Him. He is ALWAYS right.
thanks again for the treadmill, I LOVE IT!
Tammy Raley

WOW! huh! That has God written all over it. Deny it?
Well what is even more amazing is that Jason remembered her saying she lived in Crawford...she drove all the way to my house and personally put that in my box with the money. Praise GOD!
His blessings never cease to amaze me!!!!!!

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

mousy morning!

ok, so 2 nights ago at about midnight I fed raeleigh and needed something to drink after I laid her down. I headed to the kitchen, turned on the light and WHAM! There was a disgusting grey mouse on the counter. We fight mice continually but we didnt think we had any at the time...i made a really grossed out strange noise and Jason came running. I told him what I had seen and he cussed a little. The next night (last night) i sat glue traps out on the counter baited with cheese. I got up this morning and...nothing. MAN! I KNOW i had seen one.
Well we always keep bait underthe house cause like I said, this is a constant battle. This moring I am sitting at kitchen table working on comp and THERE IT IS! A MOUSE! Casually strolling across my kitchen floor in no particular hurry. I said a few obscenities and stoped towards it trying to scare it, this thing was slow! It must have gotten into the bait under the hosue, it wasnt acting get this...
I pick the glue trap up off the counter and dropped it on the thing. IT LET ME CATCH IT! Well at least it is gone. And I am certain it was the one i had seen. Lets hope there arent babies anywhere!

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Election 08

I got this information via an email forward froma good friend. I have sat the fence most of this election year. First I said if Clinton got nominated, i was definately voting mcCain and now that Obama is the nominee i didnt know where to go from there. I even thought about not voting at all. But as I think about it more and more I find myself agreeing with this forward in that my Christianity comes before all else political...

Everything below is via email and IS NOT my own...

My aunt sent me this article, and I have added the 2 links below concerning
this man. No matter what your political persuasion, I recommend that
everyone read his article below. We all need to be informed and it
crystallized for me that putting Christianity above all else, is where I
need to be. It is lengthy, but please read all the way to the bottom. He
brings up comparisons that I had never thought of. If you are an Obama fan,
then please at least be open-minded enough to look at this man's opinion. I
respect everyone's opinion, even though I may not agree, and I do try to
read both sides of the picture in order to make an informed decision.

Why I Can't Vote For Obama
By Huntley Brown

Dear Friends,

A few months ago I was asked for my perspective on Obama, I sent out an
email with a few points. With the election just around the corner I decided
to complete my perspective. Those of you on my e-list have seen some of this
before but it's worth repeating...

First I must say whoever wins the election will have my prayer support.
Obama needs to be commended for his accomplishments but I need to explain
why I will not be voting for him.

Many of my friends process their identity through their blackness. I process
my identity through Christ. Being a Christian (a Christ follower) means He
leads, I follow. I can't dictate the terms, He does because He is the
I can't vote black because I am black; I have to vote Christian because
that's who I am. Christian first, black second. Neither should anyone from
other ethnic groups vote because of ethnicity. 200 years from now I won't be
asked if I was black or white. I will be asked if I knew Jesus and accepted
Him as Lord and Savior.

In an election there are many issues to consider but when a society gets
abortion, same-sex marriage, embryonic stem-cell research, human cloning -
to name a few, then wrong economic concerns will soon not matter.

We need to follow Martin Luther King's words, 'don't judge someone by the
color of their skin but by the content of their character.' I don't know
Obama, so all I can go on is his voting record. His voting record earned him
the title of the most liberal senator in the US Senate in 2007.


NATIONAL JOURNAL: Obama: Most Liberal Senator in 2007 (01/31/2008)

To beat Ted Kennedy and Hilary Clinton as the most liberal senator, takes
some doing. Obama accomplished this feat in 2 short years. I wonder what
would happen to America if he had four years to work with.

There is a reason Planned Parenthood gives him a 100 % rating. There is a
reason the homosexual community supports him. There is a reason
Ahmadinejad, Chavez, Castro, Hamas etc. love him. There is a reason he said
he would nominate liberal judges to the Supreme Court. There is a reason he
voted against the infanticide bill. There is a reason he voted 'No' on the
constitutional ban of same-sex marriage.

There is a reason he voted 'No' on banning partial birth abortion. There is
a reason he voted 'No' on confirming Justices Roberts and Alito. These two
judges are conservatives and they have since overturned partial birth
abortion. The same practice Obama wanted to continue.

Let's take a look at the practice he wanted to continue. The 5 Step
Partial Birth Abortion procedures:

A. Guided by ultrasound, the abortionist grabs the baby's leg with forceps.
(Remember this is a live baby)
B. The baby's leg is pulled out into the birth canal.
C. The abortionist delivers the baby's entire body, except for the head. D.
The abortionist jams scissors into the baby's skull. The scissors are
then opened to enlarge the hole.
E. The scissors are removed and a suction catheter is inserted. The child's
brains are sucked out, causing the skull to collapse. The dead baby is then

God help him.

There is a reason Obama opposed the parental notification law.

Think about this: You can' not give a child an aspirin without parental
notification but that same child can have an abortion without parental
notification. This is insane.

There is a reason Obama went to Jeremiah Wright's church for 20 years.

Obama tells us he has good judgment, but he sat under Jeremiah Wright's
teaching for 20 years. Now he is condemning Wright's sermons. I wonder why

Obama said Jeremiah Wright led him to the Lord and discipled him. A
disciple is one in training. Jesus told us in Matthew 28:19 - 20 'Go and make disciples of all nations.' This means reproduce yourself. Teach people
to think like you, walk like you; talk like you believe what you believe etc. The question I have is what did Jeremiah Wright teach him?

> Would you support a White President who went to a church which has tenets
> that said they have a
> 1. Commitment to the White Community
> 2. Commitment to the White Family
> 3. Adherence to the White Work Ethic
> 4. Pledge to make the fruits of all developing and acquired skills available
> to the White Community.
> 5. Pledge to Allocate Regularly, a Portion of Personal Resources for
> Strengthening and Supporting White Institutions
> 6. Pledge allegiance to all White leadership who espouse and embrace the
> White Value System
> 7. Personal commitment to embracement of the White Value System.

Would you support a President who went to a church like that?

Just change the word from white to black and you have the tenets of Obama's
former church. If President Bush was a member of a church like this, he
would be called a racist. Jessie Jackson and Al Sharpton would have been
marching outside.

This kind of church is a racist church. Obama did not wake up after 20 years
and just discover he'd been going to a racist church. The TRUE church can't
be about race. Jesus did not come for any particular race. He came for the
whole world.

A church can't have a value system based on race. The churches value system
has to be based on biblical mandates. It does not matter if it's a white
church or a black church based on racial values, it's still wrong. Anyone from either race that attends a church like this would never get my vote.

Obama's former Pastor Jeremiah Wright is a disciple of liberal theologian
James Cone, author of the 1970 book 'the goals of the black community'. If
God is not for us and against white people, then he is a murderer, and we
had better kill him.

Cone is the man Obama's mentor looks up to. Does Obama believe this?

So what does all this mean for the nation?

In the past when the Lord brought someone with the beliefs of Obama to lead
a nation it meant one thing - judgment.

Read 1 Samuel 8 when Israel asked for a king. First God says in 1 Samuel 1:9

'Now listen to them; but warn them solemnly and let them know what the king
who will reign over them will do.'

Then God says in 1 Samuel 1:18 ' When that day comes, you will cry out for
relief from the king you have chosen, and the LORD will not answer you in
that day.' 19 But the people refused to listen to Samuel. 'No!' they said.
'We want a king over us. 20 Then we will be like all the other nations, with a king to lead us and to go out before us and fight our battles.' 21 When Samuel heard all that the people said, he repeated it before the LORD. 22 The LORD answered, 'Listen to them and give them a king.
Here is what we know for sure.

God is not schizophrenic

He would not tell one person to vote for Obama and one to vote for McCain.
As the scripture says, a city divided against itself cannot stand, so
obviously many people are not hearing from God. Maybe I am the one not
hearing but I know God does not change and Obama contradicts many things I
read in scripture so I doubt it.

For all my friends who are voting for Obama can you really look God in the
face and say; Father ,based on your word, I am voting for Obama even though
I know he will continue the genocidal practice of partial birth abortion. He
might have to nominate three or four Supreme Court justices, and I am sure
he will be nominating liberal judges who will be making laws that are
against you. I also know he will continue to push for homosexual rights,
even though you destroyed Sodom and Gomorrah for this. I know I can look
the other way because of the economy.

I could not see Jesus agreeing with many of Obama's positions. Finally I have two questions for all my liberal friends.

Since we know someone's value system has to be placed on the nation,

1. Whose value system should be placed on the nation.
2. Who should determine that this is the right value system for the nation?

Huntley Brown

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Restoration Gateway Uganda

So I was on facebook just goofing off and I happened across this. The material alone moved me deeply and then I realized that alot of the work has been done by one of my old students--Stephen McCall, he is the son of Tim and Janic McCall. That is so surreal.
Praise God for true servants.

Things to watch INSTEAD of presidential debate

WOW! This was fun!

Love it!

It's Raining on me...

I am at a time in my life where I feel like it is just raining on me constantly. When I feel overwhelmed I think of this song...

I can count a million times
People asking me how I Can praise You with all that I've gone through
The question just amazes me
Can circumstances possibly
Change who I forever am in You
Maybe since my life was changed
Long before these rainy days
It's never really ever crossed my mindTo turn my back on you, oh Lord
My only shelter from the stormBut instead I draw closer through these times
So I prayBring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be freeBring me anything that brings You glory And I know there'll be days When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to praise You Jesus, bring the rain
I am yours regardless of the clouds that may loom above because you are much greater than my pain you who made a way for me suffering your destiny so tell me whats a little rain
[1st Chorus]
Holy, holy, holy
Holy, holy, holy
is the lord God almighty
is the lord God almighty
I'm forever singing
[2nd Chorus 2x]everybody singing
Holy holy holy
you are holy you are holy
[2nd Chorus 2x] makes me remember that we CAN and SHOULD priase Him in everything.
Right now I am awaiting word as to whether I have a cancerous thyroid nodule. I had an ultrasound while suffering from thyroiditis a week and a half ago and they found a nodule then. I had to do a 2 day thyroid scan and uptake exam. These tests required me to take a small amount of radioactive iodine. The iodine in my system didnt allow me to breastfeed my 4mo old. All this was happening while my husband is out of town for 5 days taking 2 certification exams for microsoft.
My mom fell off her horse and broke her wrist so badly that she had to have emergency surgery to place pins through her flesh to an external 8 in bar.
Reese's periatric optomologist appt is in a week or so.
Raeleigh's birthmark requires that follow up visit asap, we are going in Nov. There are now little white bumps in the mark.
I think I have a follow up to my gp but i cant even think straight enough to remember.
I am still fighting the sell or not to sell battle in my head with the house.
Jason is selling his truck.
We are having a garage sale.
...You know what...i feel myself rambling and I am realizing just now how trivial most of this is. Most of it isnt even trials it is just stuff to do. I guess it really isnt raining after all, maybe just sprinkling.

Monday, October 6, 2008

Remembering DeJa

When I was in 8th grade our family dog died...his name was collar. We loved collar soooo much and were ripped to pieces when he had to be put down. We are all dog lovers and a few weeks later decided it was time to move on. That is when dipity joined our family. Dipity is my namesake--"boobie" that is. Dipity lived for a good 14 years and had to be euthanized in her old age. My mom's heart was broken. That was her best friend. Everyone told her, get a dog, move on, it will get took her a while but she did just that and this is where precious little Deja comes into the picture. She was a huge blonde dog that thought she was a tiny lap dog. She loved everyone and shared hugs and kisses on a whim. She was so very beautiful , all 120 lbs of her. I heard my mom refer to her as the morning sunshine, she brightened everyones day. Her name was in memory of SerenDIPITY, she was DEJA voo.
We went to my parents this weekend and DeJa went to heaven. She got hit in front of my mom and reese. I was right there too but oulny 'heard' it. We all rode down to mailbox in the trailer on the lawnmower. Deja Followed so happily and jubilent, as was her nature. She detoured to the horse pasture where she went for a 'roll' and then into the pond for a quick rinse off. She was having such a good time and you could read it all over her. Mom opened the gate to get to the mailbox and told Deja to stay. Deja was so happy and excited that she didnt heed the warning. Off she galloped away across the small 2 lane highway. Mom and Reese hand in hand proceeded to the mail box, got the mail and headed back calling Deja. Just then a truck topped the hill hitting the max limit for the area at a whopping 55MPH. Mom sreamed and flagged and screamed and jumped the whole 10 seconds before impact--but the truck never slowed, stopped or even veered. Mom hit her knees screaming and rocking and holding little Reese. The driver didnt even stop and Deja was a 12o lb dog...i dont see how they even drove away. We screamed and screamed for jason and Dad to no immediate avail.
It was an emotional weekend for my parents. Reese just kept saying Deja car BOBO...where is deja...:(. I had to just send my mom and the kids back to the house and find Deja, she had been thrown 10 feet into a ditch and was spit open, her back was broke and everything was 'out'. She was still alive and moving her head but not crying or anything...I know she didnt even feel anything b/c of the back break. OH I prayed so hard that my dad wouldnt have to shoot her, that she would just go. Dad loved that dog too. But she was suffering.
The bad thing was that we were at the end of the pasture and the house sits at the back....we were screaming for the guys to come help. Dad heard and came running thinking mom had run over reese with the lawnmower....
I saw him running and thought OH GOD please dont let him have a heart attack...(his dad has had 5)I had to stay with DeJa while dad went back up to get his rifle. Mom came back down after giving Jason the kids and just laid on the ground next to her holding her and was rough. But Deja immediately relaxed and mom spoke soothingly to her telling her she was loved and good and beautiful, DeJa was waiting on her...I KNOW she was. I am going to have a hard time getting that image and moms screams out of my head. But all that matters is that DeJa knew she was loved...and you know what...She STILL is.

Here is the memorial mom set up for DeJa and to try to get information on the truck that hit could have sooo easily been mom and Reese. Whoever it was was so out of it that they MUST have been drunk or High, it was sooo totally senseless!

After it was all said and done, I was trying to calm mom down and be sure she had her head on her shoulders I had the realization that I had gotten very bloody holding and praying over precious little DeJA. And those of you who know your stuff will understand me when I say that I felt like I needed some:


just make it not so

They found the truck that we know hit her, it has grill and hood damage with duct tape holing the headlight on...

The man is an alcoholic and is constantly drinking and driving...

I guess this is when it stinks to live in a small town where EVERYONE knows you, your vehicle and where you live.

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Once Upon a Time...

I would like to tell you a story. I am sharing this not for you to pity me nor see me as a charity case but to Glorify God in my situation. Please do not feel like I am asking you to bail me out, I realize that the circumstances I am in are because of my sinful ways [wasting money, eating out (come to find out food is an idol in my life), living above my means]...I have made alot of bad decisions--couple that with a few major plumbing problems, an expensive childbirth and here I sit today.
So here goes...
I am at the end of a very trying 2 week period. Two weeks ago today I sat down to finalize my budget and found myself to have only $20 left and no groceries nor gas. Hmmmm, I didnt see how that was going to work. I finagled this and then I finagled that and THEN, THEN, THEN, I realized I HADNT EVEN TITHED! I have made a new vow that I WILL tithe 10%, something I had yet to do in my adult life. I sighed, tried to take myself out of it (HA) and started over with a tithe. After much moaning and anxiety and prayer I just had to let it go becaue there was nothing I could do and now I was even deeper in the whole than when I started out.
OK, so first off Jason and I came up with tons of items to sell to help make ends meet
dvd stand
patio table
chi plat iron
over 50 DVDs
Coke ice cream table
deep freeze
and the list continues.
We made some real headway this way and in the process learned to not build up treasures here on Earth and to live more simply.
Then in conversation with my mom it came out about my situation. Mom usually sends the girls money for their saving account. She sent that and then some...$200. That was enough to cover my groceries.
Jason and I were so thankful that we had to share this experience with our life group and a few friends. A few days later we got an anonymous Walmart Gift Card in the mail for $60...that was gas $$.
God is so good.
How very prideful of me to try to fix the situation on paper, to try to find a way to make it work, to believe that I could change it somehow. Just giving up in my flesh and handing it to God made order come out of chaos.
Believe me, I am no expert when it comes to handing stresses over to God but WOW! I did and WOW! It made such a believer out of me. Isnt it funny that although we say we 'believe' in God and 'believe' His word that we find it so difficult to actually obey. I never realized disbelief was such a stronghold in my life. To just obey in the purest sense of the word...God says so and then I do it.
How much easier would life be if we lived that way?